Have to find a job... don't really want to. Have to get a car... REALLY don't want to now that State Farm isn't going to insure NJ anymore. And then there's the matter of what kind of car to get... they all bore me. I'd like to own a UPS truck or a safari bus or something maybe... hmm.

The rough recording continues, as does the lyrical struggle. I keep a notebook of ideas--all sorts--and as I sift through it I find I can only skim a few pages before wanting to throw it across the room. I think I've figured out why. I've been using the same notebook for what? ...3 years, maybe? So while there are a lot of good ideas in it, there are also a lot of ideas in it that I thought were good 3 years ago. But they're not. Time to move on, and that's no problem, but after reading a dozen or so lines that make me groan and say, "Oh God... what was I thinking?!" I stop wanting to look for the good ideas. I read a really good Archers of Loaf intereview today, though... it was an old one, but still, it was good. They talked about themes or periods that their music went through; how their style progressed over the years, and how that was connected to what they were going through. And I thought, "I don't really do that... why not?" When I used to write, my writing was always very closely connected to what I was going through. Not so with my music. Perhaps because what I'm going through at the moment isn't particularly interesting (which is a good thing, trust me), or it's something I don't think I have a particularly interesting spin on. Perhaps it's because of the greater time investment. Shrug. Not sure.

Today one of my close friends leaves for 3 weeks, which isn't a good thing but it'll free up some time I guess. I'm house sitting for her, watching her pets and such, and she has a piano (it's really out of tune, but all the better), so I plan to play it while I'm there. I did this last year and would sometimes sit there for 5 hours at a time. That was spontaenous, though, whereas this year I'm planning to do it, so it probably won't happen. Funny how that works.

Hmm... this update sounds negative. It's not, really... in fact, I think I'm fighting off negativity with it. Things are going, but it's more difficult to get the ball rolling than it has been in the past.

Chris